Today I learned a salutary lesson about the laws of life. For anyone wanting to see how imperfectly I use these in my world, this is an ideal opportunity… it’s definitely imperfect usage. Warning…I do not appear in a good light..it isn’t pretty.
Do not go to your local Bank to conduct a foreign transaction wondering what your post will be about today…it might show up, in unexpected ways. Do not waltz into your local bank and seeing unfamiliar tellers say to yourself uh oh…probably no one knows how to do this. It might not work out quite as well as you would wish.
Without going into all the unsavory details, well okay I’ll go into some of them. I was waiting in a pretty long line at the bank, thinking the above thoughts, when a very loud voiced, officious young woman decided to be ‘helpful’. Well at least I think that was the plan. On learning I had a foreign check to deposit she began to tell me… and everyone else within a few hundred yards what it was I needed to do. I tried to tell her I’d been doing this for quite a few years and was pretty conversant with how it worked. Apparently not good enough for bossy Bertha (there’s a clue here).
By now, the hackles on the back of my neck are all asunder, and I began to push back somewhat. Trouble was that in many respects it turned out that bossy Bertha was right…I did need to do what she suggested…in fact I’d always done it…but in the moment, hackles being what they are…I wasn’t hearing her clearly. I was really pushing back at her attitude, her broadcasting my business to anyone with two ears and of course experiencing the results of my own consciousness.
She was actually right and I was not. I apologized…I’d misunderstood.
I’ve become practiced at asking myself what’s in my consciousness, because I know, through experience, that my consciousness is the only cause of the conditions of my life. I know that as long as we look for the cause of events in places other than within ourselves, we’ll never find it. And even though I tried, for a minute to blame her, to focus on how rude and officious she was and feel all the attendant righteous emotions that go along with being right, I couldn’t.
I know I can’t be aware of a fault, or even greatness in another without it first being in me. To have any control in the outer world of my experience, I must first control my inner world of thoughts.
The only question I wanted answered was what, in me, is this a reflection of? I could interpret this reality in any way I chose. You could probably have had the same experience and interpret it in an entirely different way. I hope you would…believe me…my interpretation was not helpful.
We’re a conglomeration of all the thoughts and feelings we’ve had since childhood and if anyone has read the ‘about’ section of this blog you’ll know I claim the status of ‘bossy boots’. Aha…there it is in black and white, written large on my blog.
In my consciousness lives bossy boots her own self. Is it any surprise to anyone who’s aware of these life laws that I got to experience this officious young woman? Life simply responds to our vibration of energy. And I experienced this event because I called her into my world…well that part of my consciousness did. Without my belief…there would be no bossy Bertha. Not that she might not have been there physically, just that I would have experienced her differently.
We see it all the time, in relationships…it’s him/her…they’re just projecting their stuff onto me…it’s the way they behave…you wouldn’t believe what they said. Or at work…my boss just doesn’t like me…he treats me so badly…it’s his fault I lost my job. Or the employer who has difficulties with vendors…they just don’t respond quickly enough…they didn’t show up when they said…I’m always disappointed in the end result.
Whilst all these experiences might be true and real…the reason we had them is that life simply delivers events and circumstances according to the vibration of energy we dwell in.
Isn’t it a fabulous system. We create an image of who we are, we have experiences that reinforce that image, all the time oblivious to the fact that it’s all a temporary reality, held in place by our consistent assumptions. And best news of all..we get to change this reality any time we choose…okay not exactly with a flick of a wrist, but within our awareness lies the gift of power.
Excuse me…I’m off to do a bit of changing future realities…I’ve had enough of bossy boots for one day.
Encourage one another.
11 thoughts on “Now What?”
Another great post, Elle. Now, I’m going to say this quietly so no one else hears it, but just between you and me, it really is okay to express something other than peace, love, and harmony 24 hours a day. We’re not saints, and we’re allowed to feel stuff like anger, frustration, or wanting to go up to someone and make that annoying noise that Jim Carrey made in Dumb and Dumber, directly into his or her face.
As long as we’re generally happy and in control, it can be quite satisfying to pop your head in a tumble dryer and scream an occasional f-bomb.
Not that I’ve ever done that of course.
Great comment Steven. I absolutely agree with you, it is okay to express your feelings, whatever they are. In fact I think that our bodies are emotional filters and suppression of feelings can make us ill. And if it feels great to ‘pop your head in a tumble dryer and scream an f-bomb’ I definitely say go for it. Or however else you want to express yourself. It’s all good.
For me, it just doesn’t feel good, nor does it make me happy.
As my quote from Saturday expressed “control of feeling is all important to a full and happy life” not denying, or suppressing any feeling but reaching for one that feels better and choosing not to entertain one that doesn’t feel so good.
Part of the point I wanted to make in my post was that I’ve had tons and tons of practice in asking myself “what in my consciousness is being reflected to me” and that now seems to be the state I currently occupy so it’s pretty tough to get annoyed or angry at someone or some event that came from…yep me. In fact, try as I might, and believe me I tried, I just couldn’t get there!
Maybe this is why I like Elvis Costello’s ‘Peace, Love and Understanding’ it just feels so darn good. 🙂
Excellent comments, thank you for replying Elle. I’ve certainly found that the more you stop yourself reacting, the more it becomes an automatic response. For me, it’s all about inner power and how you see yourself. If you see yourself strong and always able to handle everything, it’s really hard to react in a negative manner. I guess what I was trying to get across in my original comment was how a little humour can be introduced into stressful or irritating situations, allowing a little steam to be let off while at the same time reducing the intensity of the initial emotional response – that and to not beat yourself up if you find yourself reacting to something in a way that doesn’t feel good in the moment :0)
And I love your sense of humour Steven. 🙂
This may be a little off topic, but your post made me realize how much our reactions to others or situations are really a secondary emotion to something deeper. It’s the whole idea that we live by some unconscious assumptions. There are core issues at the root of any of our life problems and we need to uncover these. Changing our beliefs and how we see things will certainly change our surroundings.
Absolutely Joe… to my mind it’s the ONLY way to have new experiences (and in my case a somewhat quieter one). 🙂
Well Elle the ‘ell with today. If my encounter today was indeed was my reflection, it’s time for a new mirror.
Now you gave me my laugh for the day Brian. Well one of them. Very cute and actually true, I’m busy making myself a new mirror as we speak.
Despite the occasional mild discomfort, to know that our experiences are mirroring back our consciousness is a wonderful and amazing thing. It grants us instantaneous feedback regarding what vibrational state we are currently operating from. ANd then we have “choice”. Do we stay we are or choose something different? Marvelous . . .
Thank you !
Write on, Elle !
I have a very vivid imagination so,when I encounter experiences whether comfortable or uncomfortable I write them in the form of an Shakepearean play,this way it gives me a humorous take on the obstacles I create when I take my ego on a trip!This also helps me to see where I can change me for the better and have fun doing it!
Love this Arleen. What a great idea.