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Have ever found yourself in a state of discomfort?
I’m not talking about physical discomfort, more the kind that swells from deep within and reaches into every aspect of your life. Where you feel odd. You’re not yourself. You feel squiggly. Something doesn’t fit. You don’t feel like you.
Have you ever been there and wondered what the heck…or words even stronger. Not being a cursing woman myself I don’t quite have the vocabulary. Not that I’ve anything against cursing…it sounds great coming from someone else. But for some reason any time I’ve tried it, people snort with laughter, apparently it doesn’t sound right. Oh well.
It lasted two weeks. Not the cursing state, the state of discomfort.
It didn’t even begin slowly. It just arrived one day.
At first I didn’t know what was happening. I wasn’t depressed, I still laughed and had fun, but somewhere deep within was this sense of…something. I couldn’t put my finger on it. Couldn’t even give it a name.
I tried. Hard.
Was I scared, or worried, or upset, or insecure?. Didn’t think so…but I supposed I could be.
What had I been thinking. No idea. And anyway, I wasn’t thinking the same thought for two whole weeks. I’m pretty good at monitoring where I am and if I’m off track, getting myself right back to focusing on what I want.
Not this time. It didn’t much matter what I was thinking…the discomfort just sat there. Like some bump on a log…sitting…doing nothing…but being.
I know what it feels like to be standing on the edge of a huge chasm, wondering if today’s the day I leap. And it wasn’t that. I know what it’s like to be in the void, waiting…waiting for a new state of consciousness to be birthed. And it wasn’t that.
I was flummoxed.
I didn’t like it. It didn’t feel good. It was different and I wasn’t embracing it.
Try as I might to experience something different, I was held captive by discomfort. My understanding of the laws of life were colliding with what was happening within. Whatever the heck it was.
One week led into the other, with discomfort my constant companion. There we were, the unlikely couple, Pollyanna herself and this bullying, discomfort.
And then I read this:
“When we surrender, we allow the universe to work its magic; we say yes to infinite possibilities; we trust that things will work out as they are meant to; and we give our self permission to let go of the outcome. This can be liberating, intimidating, blissful, scary, and a swirl of so many other emotions. But in the end, if we are true to our heart, life unfolds with magnificence… and we get to celebrate.” ~ David Ji
And I knew I’d been in the universal dance of development, of expansion and I most definitely hadn’t been in harmony with the process.
And I let go.
I let go of wanting to change the feeling of discomfort. And it simply dissolved, melting away into nothingness.
I entered a bright sunshiny day and I saw that I was going to change whether I wanted to or not. Life likes change – life is change – we cannot and will not stay the same – even she who who’s perfectly happy with tried and true and even boring, I’m just not going to be staying there for long.
We live in a realm of constant change and like it or not, it’s happening; sometimes in small increments where we hardly notice it, sometimes in incredibly huge leaps. And it ploughs on through all our resistance. No amount of foot stomping or pouting is going to make any difference.
Some smart someone once said change is the only constant and boy did they hit the nail on the head.
Just paying attention to nature gives us a clue. The seasons change, the tides ebb and flow, the moon waxes and wanes. We’re living in a sea of change. Our very cells are changing right now. Everything is in constant flux.
Best to give up all thoughts of stability you who enter here. It isn’t real anyway, stability that is.
So for those who might find themselves in a state of discomfort today or maybe tomorrow, take it from me.
Don’t question it.
Don’t bother fighting it. You’re interfering with the very power that is leading you into a greater expression of your very self. Spirit is always for expansion.
Don’t avoid it.
Ignoring it doesn’t make it go away, honest.
Instead embrace it. Jump into the flow of life with as big a splash as possible and then go with the current. It’s a heck of a lot easier to go with the flow of life than against it…trust me. And if you simply remember you’re heading for where life unfolds magnificently you’ll end up celebrating your newest expansion.
You’ll discover new successes, new heart warming experiences, new stepping out as you, in a bigger, bolder way. And I can say this with hand on heart because that’s just what’s happening to me.
More evidence of this to follow soon. Watch this space.
What about you? Been unhappy, or feeling discomfort lately? What did you discover?
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Encourage one another.